Sometimes i cant help getting angry at my belly dance teachers in Singapore. What have i learnt? When i thought i had? Here i am under training, 3 months to make a full proper show. My trainer, a lebanese entertainer of over 30 years, looks at me and says “You are only a beginner!”. I counted on my fingers the number of years i studied belly dance. 6 years! And yet i cant do a full show!
He tells me, that technique wise i have full potential, but i lacked the spirit, the showmanship. A belly dancer has to adapt to any surrounding, dance with props, veil, wings, cane, and make people dance with her, only then does she do a full show.
And when i think back, i am nothing. Well i can do a couple of drum solos…..
He says thats not enough, and people will get a headache.
I am getting used to what is called military camp of belly dancing. In eleven days, he asked me, have i improved?
Yes. I can do drum solos better, i can get audience to dance with me, i smile more often, and now i can do some floorwork.
Yesterday at practise, he told me to show him what i can do. I did some floorwork, and he told me to stop talking and keep doing. And i did. I went down atleast 5 times! I got up, and asked if i could get a break. He told me no, and dont get him mad and dance. I continued dancing. He gave me a cane and said, dance with it. I said i have no training, and whether i can look at some references. He said no. And do i started to do what he taught me. And to my disbelief, i could balance it on my breasts and my head, and i started to dance.
He told me i was shy, very very shy. And i feel it. I am a very shy person. My trainer is a good man, a good teacher, harsh but good. I can see myself getting there at a faster speed. What i couldnt achieve in 6 years, he got me to achieve in 11 days!
And he tells me, i am not a superstar. And yes, i am not. And i wonder in 3 months if i can be, I dont think so. But i have to break that shell and work hard. Habibi is a very good man, and i would hate to disappoint him!
He makes fun of me in front of his guests of my youtube videos \ “SHE IS TEACHING!”
I am enthusiatiast never meant to teach the wrong stuff, but god i have so much to learn.
I live with a model from liberia here. She is beautiful, and dresses so well. I get scolded occsionally for my bad dressing and makeup. So she is out there looking for me, making me a little more sexy,
Right now i am called THE HOUSEMAID! I am sorry i am unable to update youtube. I dont think i can. I love u all.