CREATIVE SOCPSY JOURNAL

My creative socpsy journal. I cant believe i did this. But i guess its all for the grades. I am not a good actress. I rather be behind the camera. But desperation makes you do unbelievable things. Its kind of risky. Creative journals can go either way. I rather try try

some crazy than taking main roads.

tired to write out the journal. I am really looking forward to my holiday now. I have so mch more to work on in the next two weeks.

MEET MY FRIEND YANNICK

Isnt he just the perfect modelling material. I can keep using him 4 my films. Just the perfect face

FEW WORDS I NEEDED TO SAY OUT

I needed a place to vent my feelings and i am here now.

Ive a few words to tell myself

Ive a few words to write in stone

I have to tell the world that i am different

I am not afraid of anyone

I rather do things differently than be lost in the crowd

I have one life

I rather do what i want

Then die, never doing them.

If i was afraid i would never leave my comfort zone

I would never hear humilating words from people

Just to be here and do what i want

Its my story, its my thoughts

I write my own life

Wont i do what i want with my story?

Ive built castle on the foundation of an impossible dream

A dream a youth would only think its part of a movie

I broke that castle

To come here

To build a whole new foundation from scratch

I am not afraid of anyone

I am not afarid of failing

Ive been there

Failed to the bottom

I dont think i can fail no more

So hear i am

With a few words

not only this is a reminder to myself

But an announcement to others

Its my life

I am not gonna live very long

Let me do what i like

I rather live a life for myself

Than die pleasing others.

Shanu

SAD SAD SAD LIFE

Today, i dreamt of my bro again. He was lying on my sister;s bed. I sat beside him and stroked his chin and asked him why he never kept his beard. He was nice and cuddly as ever. Not wearing a shirt. He was quiet. He didnt say anything. He just looked at me with those eyes. In my dream, its like i knew he was going to die. He came to Singapore to see me. And my heart was aching with the fact that this handsome guy will be dying in a few days. I had tears in my eyes and i stroked his hair. He kind of told me, he would be there 4 me 4ever. I woke up with the dread that my brother is really dead. I missed him so much.

Sometimes during the long bus rides to my school, i cry. I cry when i remmeber how he imitates shaggy’s song. Or when he makes fun of me. This semester is a devil. I had no time to heal my heart. Ive been losing temper. Getting angry. Not being patient. I dont like telling everyone that im sad and upset. I rather hide my condition.

Yesterday, one of my classmates had a heart problem. My heart jumped. Cos it reminded me of my bro. I didnt want her to suffer like my bro. I dont want to ask too much. I dont know. I just felt i better not. But i worry.

I am waiting 4 that holidays. I want to take a break. See my family in india. The pain is getting too much. After NVP3, i realise i must relax. I must not be too hard on my group mates. I am used to working non stop. But i cant expect them to suffer without food or water.

I learnt to smile more and relax. But then again, some people slack too much. I cant kep calling after you to be serious. Ive the same workload as you have. Its always nice to lean on another group member. But not alwyas.

Im keeping check on my behaviour. I will try not to be too mad. I am too tired to be mad at anyone. We have a big age gap people. Its very very hard to work with people of not your age group. I dont know how long more ive to work like this. I have no rights to tell dem to be serious. I was playing just like them when i was their age.

Ive been thinking of some things lately. Ive been getting premonitions that i might be really getting married. Hmm ive been seeing flashes. Lets see what lalita says to that. Dont tell me i didnt warn you. Maybe after this sem holidays i might be mrs ****

Its been a long since i had a good talk with ny of my real friends. Just lately, all this weird flashes of this very someone i dont really want to be married too. I think those of you who are close to me, should know who it is. But i beg god not to let this come true. Cos its gonna suck being married to him. God help me…

just 3 more weeks

and here i come KERALA

I miss that place so much

SHIMMY HOW TO VIDEO

This video is done on special request for Yusor. She needed to know how to do a shimmy. But, i would just like to tell you guys i am not a pro dancer. I am learner mysef. Ever since i switched school of dance, i realised how many mistakes i have been making. I dont know if i should blame my ex teacher to have been so careless. But, i felt upset that man techniques she had been teaching me isnt right at all.

I didnt realise my snake arms was wrong. Until my teacher corrected me and told me how to break down each movement. When i started doing it, i realise it looks really like a snake arm. She really corrects all my movements. I even learn a tummy unduation. She would literally sit down with me and make me push my muscles. Every minute detail is taught.

I am glad i didnt continue with my previous classes. I cant imagine having to pay so much and coming out only to be embarassed that my techniques are not right or corrected. I just realised my journey of bellydancing will take a long time. And most importantly, the foundation has to be right. I am tempted to also get a private tutor to refine my steps.

It will probably cost a 500 a month. Its expensive. Very expensive compared to a class setting. But i guess i can save up. Its better than nothing. If i am going to learn something, i rather learn it thoroughly.

I was very tempted to take out all my videos on realising some mistakes. I dont want to teach anyone wrongly. A pro dancer can easily see through my mistakes. But i guess, one day i will be real good. It may take a few more years. But honestly, i dont care.

NVP 3 PROJECT

I am glad to see Chakky again. I guess i am a mother hen in this project too. I have to oversee some of the potential problems, so i always bring up possible side effects to certain ideas, I have nothing to say to this semester. Its really stressful. I have never written what i felt here on this blog. But i am emotionally dry and physically dying. I tempted to write a letter to whoever who organised this semester. I really hope they can understand that we are suffering. Please dont tell us, “if others can do it, we can too”. Not everyone is the same. I am yet to get over my bro’s death. I am waiting for the coming holidays to cry like hell for it. Please plan it with some humanity. Its not that we dont care about the course, we really want to do well. Please spread out the deadlines in such a way, we have ample time to give our best to our work. But then again, i am just here to study. I dont want to write a letter to someone up there, and he gets pissed and starts scrutinising me and making my poor life hell. Smtg like this happened to my sister in JC. Just because she decided to voice out something.

The world doesnt quite work this way FSV. We dont have deadlines everyday for work. Its been days since i sat with my family or rabbits. Its been days since i played xbox with my dad.

I guess i will tolerate as much as i can. I am not gonna write any letter to anyone. I am tired. I dont want you guys to pick on me. I seriously wanna graduate and just get married. Or i swear , i will marry while finishing this diploma lol.

Even that would be a sucky idea, co i bet my husband would divorce me cos i wouldnt have enough time for him. And god help me, if i get pregnant. I think me and my kid will die just finishing modules in FSV.

hmm

ANGER/ art therapy with myself

Description: A gal burning in her own flames. The flames came from her. She is cold, naked and alone. She needs to run away. Escape from those flames. They are burning her. But she cant, it too late. It burning her all over.

2nd intrepretation: The blue represents the “coldness” she has within herself. The flames are melting it/ But she doesnt want that. She wants to run away. She is all alone. She is desperately looking for an escape route.

Non stop shimmy drills

 

Happy new year to all you people Well in this video i have continued with shimmy drills. Shimmy drills are a good practise for any bellydancer. And trying to shimmy with basic moves such as hip circles or figure eigths can really help you be a better dancer. Sometimes practising on your own can be pretty boring. Try challenging yourselves to a full song, where you would do nop stop shimmying.

History of shimmy

Maybe i can go on and talk about shimmy for people who are curious about this step. Shimmies originated from Africa. This step can be seen extensively on rain dances done by many africans. Shimmies are vibrations done by pushing the knees back and forth at a fast speed. There are many types of shimmying. There are shoulder shimmies, hip shimmies and even muscle shimmies. I have even heard of butt shimmies American tribal dancers shimmy slightly different from others. They shimmy while bending. Whereas egyptian dancers, shimmy with their knees absolutely straight. Turkish too bend slightly while shimmying. There is no right or wrong in the way you shimmy. Here i am going to talk about the different effect each shimmy gives

Bending and shimmying

Done by most tribal dancers. There is more ease for some people. Shimmies look more bigger Hips goes up and down. We can call it loose shimmies. Some dancers bend all the way, the more you bend, the bigger your shimmies. Whereas some dancers do a slight bend. Personally, i like bending my knees a little, its easier for me.

Egyptian tight shimmies

Egyptian hip shimmies are really tight vibrations. They do not bend their knees at all while shimmying. The result is really tight vibrations. Its great for really fast drum beats. I do like doing this at times. But i still prefer bending a little

Other types of shimmies?

There are many ways of doing this wonderful step. One famous one is when your entire body vibrates. I have often seen dancer Suhaila Salimpour do this. It is done by bending both your knees up and down very slightly. It becomes a vibration and your entire body shakes. I have done it in the above video at 01:45 sec. It is also known as the muscle shimmy.

Earthquake shimmy?

Yes its pretty similar to the eathquake shimmy EXCEPT its still different. Earthquake shimmies are executed by lifting and dropping your heels really fast. Remeber to wear a good bra when you do this, or it can look really very obscene.

WASHING MACHINE SHIMMY/ SAIDI SHIMMY

Sounds funny doesnt it? This is one by twisting waist to the left, so your left hip is diagonally in front and the right hip is diagonally behind.  This step has been demonstarted by a very good dance teacher called cassiopeia

Thats actually an instruction of how to do it.

Shoulder shimmy

This is done by alternating the shoulders right and left. Some people mistake this to be shaking your breasts. If you keep doing that, your breasts are gonna be noodles. The mechanism is actually in your shoulders. Keep your shoulder loose. Push right shoulder in front while the left is diagonally behind and then push the left in front while right is diagonally behind.

Choo Choo Shimmy

This is done by tip toeing. You do a shimmy on tip toes.  A walking choo choo shimmy is demondtarted at 02.22 sec of my 1st video in this post

Brazillian shimmy or rotational shimmy

I have done this in one of my videos. I shall paste it here again. Rotational shimmies are tiny tiny Umis or hip circles done really fast.

Thats an instrcutional video by me. You have to make sure you get that tiny line on your tummy while shimmying. O yes! Thats my favorite shimmy. You can always finding me do that

Heel shimmies

I dont know whats the real name. But this is my personal favorite. Initially i thought its something i created. But it is in the dance vocabulary. It is done by lifting and dropping one heel at a time..Hmmm looks like i would need to make an instructional video for this one too

3 4 shimmies

Hmm this is a topic i shall zoom into when i do my next video. There are few ways of executing this shimmy. It done by sliding hips to a side, and lifting and dropping the other leg. 

A small note

I can go on with list of shimmies. There are many more like the ghawazee or samba shimmy. But when i thought of writing them down in words, it turned me off. Maybe i can explain better through videos. Shimmying should be left to your imagination. There is really no right or wrong. Even though some people prefer sticking to a certain genre of bellydance Shimmy drills should be creative. You can do almosy any step with a shimmy to it. Like what ive done in my video. Try and keep challenging yourselves. I am off for now. Do ask me questions if you have any Happy new year and happy shimmying

References

http://www.serpentine.org/yasmin/Shimmies.htm